黃蓮樹下

黃蓮樹下寫部落,苦中作樂

17 more months 九月 19, 2007

Filed under: Work — Katherine Lam @ 12:38 下午

The first thing I got after getting back to work from vacation is a phone call from my boss grilling me on millions of things.  Everything just doesn’t look right:  numbers are wrong, report has mistake, presentation deck is not good enough, control & test population are screwed, candidate turned down the offer, travel arrangement didn’t get approved, customer complaints … etc etc.   For that one moment I almost feel like saying ‘screw you.. I don’t give a damn and I am quitting now’.  But as coward as I am, instead, I said ‘yes boss, ok boss, I’ll fix it, I’ll get that done by End of day, Sorry about that, my bad.. ‘  Afterall, I am paid to do these things.  Sounds pathetic but he probably got the same beatings from his boss. 

It’s been 7 months since I got this job, but I feel like forever.  It’s like going to the battlefield every single day and never have a break.  17 more months to go…

 

尋獲.迷失 九月 13, 2007

Filed under: Bullsh*t,中文 — Katherine Lam @ 7:22 下午

尋獲和迷失只是一綫之差。

努力爭取過後,以爲得到了,其實失去了更多。當你沾沾自喜,以爲別人覺得你的威風神氣時,其實他們在偷偷嘲笑你的愚昧。 

有時候以爲迷路了,可是破裂帶來了轉機,柳暗花明又一村。一心帶著希望往前衝,又發覺路原來不好走,要不一直走,要不囘頭,猶疑不決之下又白花了一些年頭。可是只想不做的話,那還是一直衝來得實在一點。至少一直衝,大概終會到達一個地方吧。

 

十年一覺電影夢 九月 7, 2007

Filed under: Movie,中文 — Katherine Lam @ 10:44 下午

正在讀李安的自傳‘十年一覺電影夢’,真是非常令人鼓舞。不平凡的人生,是要自己努力去找的,他的努力和堅持成就了一位偉大的導演,好讓我這些平凡又不甘平凡的人得到啓發。 偉大的人都有一种氣質讓人崇拜, 讀李安的自傳,我看到謙厚,完美主義,尊重,學習,堅持不懈,好戰, 体諒,隨和, 堅持,堅持,堅持…

但要把這些原素終合在我身上,在帶囘工司展現在風險管理上,大概也不會太成功,因爲你只要裝懂,得過且過,把別人踩低,搶別人功勞,埋堆,裝懂,再裝懂,再加一些后台,那就夠了。 謙厚和完美主義只會是死路一條…

雖然成功了,卻不偉大。

 

Home sweet home 九月 1, 2007

Filed under: Bullsh*t — Katherine Lam @ 10:06 下午

When you were young, you always longed for all kinds of freedom, to live by yourself, to date any guy you like, to come home as late as you want.  You thought your parents were annoying as hell and they just can’t mind their own business.  Your relatives stank and you thought they were nosy if they tried to ask anything about you.  and it’s so uncool to  to celebrate christmas with your relatives.. yes that’s what you thought when you were young.

After my trip to L.A & Florida last week, I realized I want my family more than anything else now.  I mean a family with lots & lots of people, not just a 2-man family.  mom, dad, siblings, grandparents, cousins, aunts, uncles, nephews, nieces, whatever in laws, dogs, cats, goldfishes etc.  The more the better; the louder the merrier. 

Next goal of my life – is to find my home sweet home..

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